"And we learn as we age, we've learned nothing" - Brand New
Is there ever a point in your life when you can look back at an earlier age and feel like you actually knew something then? I feel as though I can look back at when I was 18 and realize I knew absolutely nothing and had no idea about the way things worked. And my 18 year old self could look back at 16 and realize that person knew nothing. I am almost an entirely different person now then when I was 18. So that is what I am getting at. Can we ever get to an age where we can look back at an earlier age and say "you know I had it all figured out then and still do now. I haven't changed much at all." It is kind of a sobering thought because at the time we think we are on the right path or that we have a good grasp on our lives. Years later you can look back on those times and realize that you were so childish and foolish and really did not know much about what life was about. When I think back to 18 I wanted entirely different things than I do now. I had entirely different friends, and different ideals. In fact, if I were to pass my 18 year old self on the street walking I may not even recognize that person. This is another one of those things that blows my mind. How can I in the span of 4 years become such a different person? Is it the influences we have around us, or is it maturity? I think it might be a combination of both. It is also weird because we can't see this change or progression or maturity as it is happening. We can only see it after some time when we reflect on our lives. I also enjoy this weird phenomenon because it shows me how much can happen in such a short time. These things really get me thinking about my life and how grateful I am for the things I have. If I had gotten what I wanted 4 years ago I shudder to think about where I might be at now. I mean, it could be wonderful, but it is so weird to think about where one choice might have taken me. I am glad to be where I am, even if I know nothing right now. Just some thoughts for your afternoon.
I think I'm pretty similar to how I used to be. I still like a lot of the same things and at time I feel way younger inside. I am less dramatic now though. I'm much different from age 16 but not so much from 18.
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